Saturday, July 24, 2010

Im pretty sure we've gone over this.....

For those of you who don't read regularly, for this portion of the evening, I will refer you to an earlier post titled "Who do you think I am?" it and read it carefully, understand it, know it.....

For those of you who are around more frequently, let me just say that today has been mind blowing for me. To be critiqued on the content of my blog is earth shattering, these thoughts are mine, therefore they are never wrong. These are opinions, points of view, and feelings....there is no right or wrong. You may disagree, but in this world, at this moment, while I type, I am not wrong. There are very few things that I do in life that are for the sole benefit of myself....VERY few. This blog is one of them.

I considered deleting the whole thing, but decided to blog about it instead.

I liken it to my own personal therapy sessions....I send these tidbits of my life out into the abyss, sometimes there is a response, sometimes there is a simple nod of understanding, sometimes there is nothing....and that's okay with me.

If you are here, consider yourself the voyeuristic type.....because you can gain little use from this blog, other than knowing that you are not alone in your quest to deal with CF, to deal with life, to take every bump in the road, every curve ball that life throws at you.....and you can manage. Trust me, if I can manage, anyone can.

I am not strong, I am not unique, I am not special.....

I make mistakes because I breathe. To err is human.....

I try to live day to day. Looking further than that is dangerous. It makes you vulnerable. It makes you dare to hope, to dream, to think that maybe, just maybe, there is life beyond what we surround ourselves with on a day to day basis.....

I try to live day to day....but hope is winning out, shadows are receding, and once again life is taking over....I am vulnerable, I am broken, but I'm still me. And I'm going to write what I want..... much love ~j


  1. I'm glad you didn't delete the whole thing.

    Here's what I think:
    You are strong, You are unique, You are special.....

    Don't worry about what other people say. Write what you want to write. You don't report to them.

    Hang in there.

  2. Hey UC! Dont remember if i hit you back on Twitter or not for this comment but I wanted to say thank you. There have been plenty of times when I sit back and stare at this screen and wonder why I do this....and you always remind me. much love ~j